WHAT I LOST

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MY MUSIC

Something I built with time, effort and passion.

MY DJ SETUP

I no longer have the DJ setup I used for the project.

MY PHONE

I currently do not have a phone.

MY WEBSITE

Even this website may disappear because its future is uncertain.

MY TRUST

Probably the hardest thing to get back.

MY PROJECT

VØIDZÆR itself is now finished.

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I AM NOT OKAY ABOUT THIS

I honestly don't know how to write this without fucking crying.

I have cried over this.

I am still deeply hurt by everything that happened.

People might look at VØIDZÆR and see a DJ name, some releases and a website.

I don't.

I see years of my life.

I see the music I made.

I see the things I dreamed about.

I see something that meant an enormous amount to me.

And now I have to let it go.

I am fucking exhausted.

I am angry.

I am hurt.

And more than anything, I am heartbroken that something I loved this much ended this way.

IT WAS NEVER JUST A NAME.

This website documents my personal experience and perspective. It is not intended to publish private or confidential information about other people.